Friday, November 19, 2010

At last..

Well here it is, Thanksgiving break. I finished school today and went home and packed to go to Albuquerque for the weekend. I am going to spend some time with my grandparents. It's always a fantastic time, and I know I am going to enjoy myself. I can't believe this semester is almost over. Honestly, I can't wait. I'm so tired. College was supposed to be great fun..and honestly, I can't stand it. I try to have a positive attitude, but it's just not what I expected. I thought I was going to come to school and make a lot of great friends, but so far it has been disappointing. I am frustrated, to say the least. Thoughts of transfer have crossed my mind, but I just don't know if that would make me any happier. I think I am just disappointed in myself. I always wanted so much more for myself than staying here in New Mexico. I had dreams of going to New York, I had dreams of even going to West Texas, and last but not least, I had dreams of going to University of Arizona. Never was my dream to be in Las Cruces...yet here I am. I feel like I didn't do enough to get where I had hoped..and now all I can think of is my disappointment. Las Cruces isn't the place for me...but I don't know what that place is. People probably just think I am whining, but if they really knew me, they'd know that I don't just whine about stuff like this. I know I have a good opportunity, but I'm just not happy. Sad as that is.

I'm hoping that over break, I will see my family and friends and obtain enough energy to get myself through the rest of the year. As of now, I'm going crazy and am kind of pushing people away. Even the best people in my life I'm constantly unsatisfied with. I don't know what the deal is, but I desperately want it fixed....

Sorry for the rant.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010


Well...I'm sorry I have been slacking so much, I just really haven't had a thing to say! My life is pretty bland right now, and I didn't really think it was worth blogging about. But I think I can scrape up a few things today. Today I went to an advisory meeting to talk about my classes for next semester. I changed my major last week from Psychology to Special Education/Elementary Education. I thought about it a lot, and I decided that ten years of school just was not the right path for me. Eventually I just want to be able to stay at home with my kids anyways, and what I was interested in with Psych just would not allow me that freedom. Being a teacher will be awesome. I love kids so much. They teach people more than anyone. They are so honest and loving.

Anyways, at my advising meeting two very exciting things happened. 1. My English 211 class is a topical class. So among topics like traveling, free will, western movies, and so on...I picked a class titled: Springfield- The Simpsons as Critique of Home and Family. I am super excited and I think it should be very entertaining. Also..I shouldn't have any classes on Friday!!! Hooray!

I am getting very very excited for Thanksgiving. I miss my family a lot, and being a college kid makes you appreciate good food more than anything else, I think. Also, the day after Thanksgiving, I will be working at the Santa Scene in the mall as photographer/cashier and potentially be dressing up as an elf. Who'd want to miss that? Ha. So all of you Roswellites should definitely come out to see THAT! :) I wouldn't mind the company at all.

Along with missing my family, I miss all of my friends! And I miss the Luévanos! [even though I count them as family] But really, I miss Travis James so so so so much! And Cody Meisel like crazy..I miss Chris Clees..I miss Natasha Suri..I miss Jason Butts! I just miss all the cool kids that aren't here in Las Cruces :(

I can't wait to see some of them.


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Amazing Weekend

Well, this weekend was definitely one that I will never forget. The weekend of my 18th birthday. My absolutely wonderful boyfriend and his fabulous roommate/best friend met me in Las Cruces to commute to Roswell for a jam-packed weekend. Of course, on the way to Roswell we had to stop in Ruidoso for some fantastic BBQ. The place is called Can't Stop Smokin', and let me tell you, it's to die for. I met up with all kinds of family in Roswell as soon as I got there, including Travis'. His sister, whom I love so much, made me a cheesecake. Check it out.

And it was GOOD.

Saturday was pretty much the biggest day of my life to date. I was baptized. Finally! I've only been waiting for like a whole year. It was amazing. That's the only word I even have to describe it. I'm glad that I had to wait, it made me appreciate it that much more, and now I am just so excited that it finally happened. There were so many people there to support me including my family and a lot of people from church. The talks were fantastic, and Travis didn't mess up! Bravo. I knew I loved him for a reason. :) Here are a few pictures from that.

That jump suit was incredibly comfortable. Funny, I know. Haha. 

Travis is the man. I was so happy to be able to share this day with him. I definitely can't thank him enough. :)

After all of THAT excitement, I even had a birthday party with my little brother! I'm telling you, this weekend was awesome. Unfortunately, all good things must come to an end, and we were stuck driving home this Sunday, much to our dismay. See...we were not too excited about it. 

Sad times. Well, that was my weekend in a nutshell! Thanks to everyone that helped make it amazing!

Listening To: The Mariner's Revenge Song-The Decemberists

Monday, October 18, 2010


We all make them, but we don't have to all live by them. The sad thing is, most people do live by them. No one likes to admit to their faults, but what they need to realize is that admitting to their faults is the best way to move on. If an excuse needs to be made, then the situation usually constitutes an apology. That's why excuses are so deadly. They are left with no intention of an "i'm sorry" and then there are people that end up hurt, with no sense of respect about them anymore.

It seems like, coming to college, I have been exposed to a huge, new spectrum of excuses. There's always a reason that something didn't get done, and never is this reason just pure neglect. It's sad to watch all of these people that are supposed to be adults pretty much obviously lie to all of our instructors, explaining how their car blew up and then they couldn't find their paper.

And the sad thing is, these excuses don't stop at school. People lie to their friends, girlfriends, roommates, about just about anything. As long as they don't have to deal with the consequences of their actions, then there is no problem, even if they just blatantly lied.

Now I have made my fair share of excuses, for plenty of reasons. But I have recently decided that I am going to do my best to not do it anymore. I can't respect them, and I wouldn't want anyone to think of me in that way. I want to own up to my actions to anyone that needs to know or wants to know. Even if I have something to be ashamed of, I don't want to be a liar.

Sorry for my rant-session, but that's just something that's weighing heavy tonight.


Listening To: Revolution-The Urgency

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Already Slackin'!

Ha. I am terrible at any sort of documentation of my life. So I knew when I started this blog that it would eventually end up being slightly sparse. However, I didn't imagine that I would drop the ball two posts in. Oh well. I'm here now, so that's something.

I am super busy with school right now. We are working up to the middle of the semester, and I am stressing over grades. I'm not doing bad, but when you're on a scholarship that requires you to at least get a 3.0 GPA, you get slightly paranoid. Especially when you have no other means of paying for school without it.

Aside from the stresses of college, October is my favorite month. The weather here in New Mexico is absolute perfection in October. I love it. I have just gotten to the point where I can wear a long sleeved shirt from time to time if I want and it doesn't make me sweat like crazy. Bliss. Also, I was born in October, so I am super biased. [Random Birthday Countdown: 10 Days!] I will be 18. Finally, right? Ha. I'm so young compared to everyone here. It's pretty embarrassing. One of my good friends who is in Lubbock now is sort of in the same boat, and he, being far more intelligent than I, actually decided to keep his birthday [which is today] a secret. He is just now turning 18, but he actually looks older, and so no one knows his secret. Such a genius. I never could have thought of that, so here I am stuck with people going, "Uhh...are you still in high school?" No. No I am not. Thanks.

Also, I am getting baptized. In 12 days. And words can not express how excited I am for that. :)

Another thing I love about October? HALLOWEEN!! Haha. I don't know why I love the holiday so much, but I definitely do. This year, though, I don't know what to be!! So if anyone reading this has suggestions, you should definitely let me know.


Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Let the Rain Sing You A Lullaby

And that's exactly what I did today. After class, I took the most amazing nap. Rain just does that to me. It makes me want to curl up with a good book, or lay down and just sleep. It's the only time I can do that without feeling totally lazy. I love rain. Today, I especially loved it. I walked outside and felt how it was actually kind of chilly, and I was instantly excited. Winter is in sight. Heck, an actual FALL is in sight. I love the chilly seasons. The clothes are cuter and more comfortable, it comes with things like hot chocolate and snuggling, and people are far better looking when they aren't sweaty. It's just a better time, in my opinion.

 On a different note, this weekend I am caught between what to do. It's my little brother's first homecoming and I kind of want to go and see him off, not to mention embarrass the crud out of him and enlighten the fear of an older sister in the little girl's eyes. Ha. I'm protective. I can't help it. Also, there is a chalk art festival this weekend in Roswell as well. For the last two years I have participated and won awards. It's really therapeutic, and it sounds pretty good right about now. Here are a few pictures from some past stuff I have done.

 I don't exactly know what got me started on sidewalk chalk, but to this day it is my favorite way of doing art.

Other than this, I can spend a weekend in Cruces alone. I really haven't done that yet, and I know I need to eventually. Ha. Or I could go to Arizona and visit my friends there. I miss Travis, and I'd like to see him before my birthday! Oh well, I guess I have some things to think about as the week progresses.

I have absolutely nothing to write about now. I guess I will bring this to an end for today, and I will write again tomorrow, or whenever I have time. Wednesdays get pretty busy for me. Always a good day.


Listening To: I Summon You-Spoon

Monday, October 4, 2010

Everything Must Have a Beginning

From what I've experienced, the beginning of everything is generally pretty dry, diluted, and never much fun at all. Sadly, I can't say that this beginning is going to be any different.

I recently got to the point that I am so self-indulged [otherwise known as: "Bored out of my mind"] that I decided to start a blog, and now we are here. I am assuming that I should give some sort of background about myself, so I will try to keep it short.

The name is Sara Kae Fink. I've always rather disliked it. Sara is the 84th most common name in the U.S. So pretty much, it's the less-common version of Sarah, the 23rd most common of names. Not to mention, it makes way more sense than adding a random 'h' on the end. Compared to Leia, which was another front-runner for my proposed names, I think that's super sad. Kae is a family thing. I'm not really into it, and I think it would be considerably more awesome if it were just a letter. Imagine the conversation:

Friend: What's your middle name?
Me: K.
Friend: What's the K stand for? 
Me: K
Friend: Just...K?
Me: Just K.

I don't know. I just always thought that would be amusing, considering people still get confused when I say my name sounds just like a single letter but is spelled with three. Whatever. On to Fink...It's German. And it also used to be a fairly common insult. Awesome.

I just recently moved away from my home in Roswell, New Mexico. ...Right? Alien Capital of the WORLD. Again, whatever. It is what it is, and aside from the flood of crazies in July, I don't really mind it. But anyways, in August I moved away to "start my life" at New Mexico State University. So far, I have learned that the "real world" consists of an incredible amount of down time. Which, in turn, means a lot of naps. Classes are dull, professors have no filters, and people seem even more irresponsible than they did in high school. I've met a few cool people, but no one I want to add to the list of lifelong friends. Not yet.

As for this blog. I don't know what I want out of it. I will just write whatever comes to mind more than likely, and add little tidbits. There will probably be something related to music in it every time. Music kinda makes my world go around. If not music, there might be something amusing, or something art related. Just watch for it.


Listening To: I Can Feel A Hot One- Manchester Orchestra